These actually aren’t as fun as I hoped they would be. “December Journaling If You Feel Like You Haven’t Achieved Much This Year” is not making me feel amazing about myself yet, unfortunately.

Routines you’ve upheld and stuck to that ground you.

I’m autistic and I have adhd. I dislike keeping routines; I want every day to feel fun and fancy free, without burdens. And not only does it have to be a routing I’ve upheld, it also has to ground me? Like…what?

I don’t know about grounding, but I do get up most mornings to take Sarah to school. Sometimes I have an appointment in the morning or I’m sick or I’m just feeling super lazy, and I have Ben do it, but it’s usually me. I don’t think that grounds me. It’s just something I have to do.

Taking care of Mom in the morning is the same. I get her pills, turn on the tv (it’s finicky since we got a new router), make her coffee, make her oatmeal, bring the meal to her, and then change the channel to what she enjoys. Also not grounding. It’s also just something I have to do.

This year I have read my Bible sporadically, practiced self-care sporadically, ate healthy sporadically, exercised sporadically, kept the house clean sporadically, wrote sporadically, and worked in the car sporadically.

I breathed deep a few times, prayed less than I should, went outside and stood on the ground in my bare feet a couple of times, used essential oils maybe twice, and conquered a disturbing amount of levels of Candy Crush. Some of those (not the game, unfortunately) might be grounding, but I didn’t do the regular. I think the only thing I’m doing regular is playing Candy Crush. I also did Duolingo every day, but I mostly do the fastest review just to keep my streak up, because I’m not good at languages and I really have to be convinced to move forward in my lessons because I don’t want to go to fast and become completely confused like I did in high school Spanish.

So I don’t know about this one. I guess I wrote stuff about it though, so that’s good enough.