I am kind of down today. I am okay, but I’m just a bit depressed. I have just been trying for so long now to be positive and thankful and joyful even when things seem difficult. And things have been difficult and appear to be not turning around anytime soon. I know there are good things in my life. I know that I have so many things to be thankful for. But it’s hard to be the one who is usually lifting up everyone else. I’m very tired and feeling really worn down today.

I am thankful for my home. I look at it today and see holes in the walls and missing mortar and loose bricks and the exposed areas on the north wall that let in so much cold last winter. I’m not feeling super positive about those things. But it’s the home I wanted and the home I got, and I do love the historical aspect of it. And the remodeled bathroom is really nice. Even though I really want to wash the shower curtain and it’s difficult for me to get down with what I call my bad arms, and I haven’t been able to get anyone to get it down for me. But maybe someone will help soon.

I am thankful for all of it. I am thankful for my yard, even though I could point out a lot of things about it that bring me down as well. I’m glad it’s somewhat rural. I’m glad that it’s back far from the road.

I’m thankful to live in Tuttle, and in Oklahoma, and in the USA. I know that I am blessed beyond belief.

I will probably feel better tomorrow.