These are frustrating. I know I’ve lots of big and small decisions. People make decisions every day. Am I going to get up or not, shower or not, brush my teeth or not, eat healthy or not, stay in place or run for the hills. Every time a person from Tuttle goes for a quick run to Walmart, they must make the decision: Mustang or Newcastle? Both are the same distance, and both have different pros and cons. I generally choose Mustang, but Newcastle is the only one that has the limited edition Ice Breakers Orange Cream Pop mints, and I really like these because I can actually taste them somewhat, and I also like the citrus-y feel in my mouth. I keep buying extra containers but I know they will run out eventually and that makes me sad. I have to make the decision every time I am there to not spend $200 I don’t have and buy out the remaining containers of mints. (But I wish I could.) I’ve also gone up to regularly putting two mints in my mouth at a time instead of one, and I’m sure that’s also not a great practice. But that citrus-y mouth feel is so nice.

Anyway, I forgot to write “December Journaling If You Feel LIke You Haven’t Achieved Much This Year.” We’re on Day 26: Decisions you made this year, big and small.

Today I made the decision to return my library books to the Metropolitan Library in OKC. I chose the Newcastle way over the Mustang way. I chose to go to the Almonte branch. Then I chose to go to Wild Hero to see Belinda at her job. I also chose not to buy anything. Then I chose to go to the library. I chose to pass over the single parking space left on the east side and instead parked on the south side. I went to the bathroom and chose the fourth stall and was rewarded with a freshly-cleaned toilet (seat was still up) and then I came in the library, chose to pick up the book I ordered (“The Favorites” by Layne Fargo) and then I chose the chair I’m currently sitting in and pulled out my laptop. Right now I’m choosing to increase the volume of the playlist I chose on Spotify (Sixties Instruments for Mellow Squares) instead of continuing to glance up at the mom and kids that just came in and are VERY LOUD.

I don’t know what other decisions I made. I guess I made the decision to have Sarah come live with us. That was a big one. I made the decision to move Mom into the side suite of the house instead of the apartment section. I made the decision to stop doing church lunch for everybody, since my kids all quit coming and it seemed ridiculous to make myself crazy on Saturday and also on Sunday morning if no one was going to come eat.

I made the decision on how we rearranged the living room with all the added furniture, and to put the tv in the living room. I liked what we had before but this is okay too. I just would like to have nice blinds so the TV wouldn’t show when you’re walking up the sidewalk. I don’t like how that looks.

I made the decision to take Mom to the emergency room when she had the TIA (ministroke). She seemed okay but it really was the right thing to do. I’m glad I saw her do it. If I hadn’t seen it I wouldn’t have ever known what happened. She might have had some before or still be having them now and I’m just missing them.

I made the decision to bring someone in a few times a week to help with Mom and give me a little break.

I’m tired of this one. That’s enough.